The peak of my Saturns return

I am grateful for the new opportunities that have come into my life. It feels like my hard work is finally paying off. It takes a lot to start over. 2020 was my restart. I shifted from non-profit work to pursue my first passion into behavioral/mental health.

At a young age I knew I wanted to help people heal and discover themselves. Honestly it started within my own family unit. I have been the peacemaker in my household for over 20+ years as my parents navigated through changes in their marriage, work, and social lives. Then I would try to be supportive of my friends and their life transitions even to this day. I consider myself a soundboard when emotions are high and low or just needing to share with someone their life’s journey. I have had a listening ear and compassionate voice most of my life. That’s not to say that I don’t have my own moments of anger, frustration and confusion but I learned how to self-evaluate and seek out help when I need it too. I truly identify myself as a bridge allowing others to express their feelings and share their perspective to build connections and gain understanding.

I didn’t know if I was making the right choices but I tried to lean not into my own understanding and pursued a deeper relationship with my Creator so that he could lead and guide me. I would be lying if I said that I always listened and obeyed but babyyyy when I do, doors open and supernatural things happen in my life. Hearing and being obedient to the voice of God has taken me places that no education, work experience or personal connection can take you. I had to fast, pray and get away from distractions in my life.

I feel like I have worked my way up to where I am today. Starting at what some would consider the bottom of the totem pole (even though they are THE HEART of any behavioral unit) I learned how to be an observer and motivator as a behavior technician at a local hospital in Richmond, VA. One of the best but most mentally draining jobs I’ve ever worked. I stayed to myself and didn’t really try to share my personal life with co-workers and stayed committed to providing exceptional care to the patients I served. Let them tell it, I am quiet and reserved buy my parents and close family and friends would beg to differ (they don’t know what that Tremanisha looks or sounds like). It was necessary for my growth to focus on school and learn how to provide trauma-informed care. I could care less about being any body’s friend or having a certain appearance to validate my worth.

Fast forward to today, I am half-way through my MSW program, completing my clinical hours at a local behavioral health center, gaining part-time work experience as a QP, and just landed my current “dream job”, all while recently launching my first business. Chileee, I went from scared to complete my first clinical assessment to being able to give a diagnosis from a 30 minute conversation (although I do not suggest that as normal practice because it doesn’t have the same level of accuracy but I digress, at a detox and stabilization facility that’s really all the time you have and need). I can truly say that every step in my journey has prepared me for where I am in life today. The transitions into these new roles have been smooth because I watched how nurses and social workers navigated shift reports and handled crisis situations, and I’ve had great mentors, teachers and advisors share with me their wisdom and knowledge. I find I am seemingly comfortable in my forward movement of leadership even though I am scared to death on the inside that I will make a mistake or say the wrong thing.

Ironically, today I learned that I am in peak of my Saturn’s return. I’ll let you do your own research on what that means. I will say that it was absolute confirmation for me. I am right where I am suppose to be. Every loss and every step back was to bring me to this very moment.